My whole first pregnancy 2 years ago with my daughter, I was so insecure about how I looked that I only have 3 or 4 full body pictures of me during that time.
I was insecure because my bump wasn't perfectly round, or even noticeable, and it was bigger than it "should be" for how far along I was.
And I was 20+lbs smaller then.
I once read (or maybe I heard it on a podcast) that being plus size and pregnant was like having an invisible pregnancy. And that is probably the best way to describe it.
Sure, it's nice to not have to worry about strangers touching your belly without permission.
But we also don't get asked anything about our pregnancy, out of fear that they'll be wrong.
So we try to round out our B belly to look more like a D belly. 'Cause that's what it's supposed to look like, right?
We put our hands on our bumps in public, hoping it will make it more obvious there's a baby in there and not just a food baby.
We're more likely to be judged by providers, judged by society. "How irresponsible to get pregnant at that weight" or even being told we won't be able to get pregnant at our weight at all.
By the way, I've been all sizes. And both times that I got pregnant, I was at my heaviest. When I was "smaller" I couldn't get pregnant.
Providers assuming we'll test positive for gestational diabetes, and lecturing us when we've gained a total of 4lbs because it's too much. *Which happened to me recently when my OB was in surgery and I had to see a midwife.
I've heard stories of plus size women being told they will have to have a c-section because of their weight.
But here I am. Growing life in the body that God gave me. Bearing the children that God meant just for me.
My pregnant body might make others feel uncomfortable.
People might make assumptions and judge.
And hopefully it doesn't sound like I'm complaining. I'm not. I've accepted these things, and I've learned to speak up for myself this time.
I just want to bring awareness, maybe spark some compassion or understanding if you're someone who has judged a plus size momma.
And to let my fellow plus moms know, YOU'RE NOT ALONE. I get it.
After all, we're all moms. We're all HUMAN♡