I have officially been a momma for 3 months. It's so crazy how fast, yet how much has happened in that time. I swear, she looks different everyday!
This past week I actually figured out the cause of my little one's excessive fussiness. To the extent where I almost couldn't take her anywhere. I saw on Instagram, a blogger who also has a 3 month old took her baby on a plane, went to an event, stayed in a hotel, and came back on a plane. And I thought to myself.... Eliana wouldn't be able to do that! There's NO WAY she could handle all that stimulation, all the new surroundings. I can barely take her anywhere. It's just so amazing how babies have such different personalities from the very beginning.
Her eyes are blue like mine (Theron's are hazel) and they appear to be staying that way. Her dark hair that she was born with is starting to fall out, and a lighter hair color is growing in. We think it's blonde, in the sun it looks that way. Overall it just looks brown still. Only time will tell. I was born with hair like hers, and in a 9 month picture of me I was completely platinum blonde. She has her daddy's olive-y skin tone, which is just gorgeous. She's already more tan than I am haha.
I don't have her height and weight til her 4 month + vaccine appointment, which is next month, but she is in size 2 diapers (mostly because of those delicious chubby baby thighs) and size 0-3 month/ 3M clothes. She's catching up quickly size-wise for being a 34 weeker, but I can tell her central nervous system is still not where it should be. Her neck and back strength keeps getting better, I'm impressed everyday how long she can hold her head up when I carry her upright against my shoulder. She hasn't rolled over yet, but she is a preemie so we still have time. As much as it stresses me out wondering how off on her milestones she'll be... I know no matter what that she'll get there eventually.
One thing that has changed in the last month is that she LOVES to cuddle when she's sleepy. Like, nuzzle her face in your neck to where she can barely breathe. She runs like a furnace (like her momma) so we both end up all sweaty but she doesn't seem to mind. She also loves grasping my hair during this cuddle/nap time, which just makes me feel so important, but also I'm worried that my fragile blonde ends won't hold up for very long haha. I'm gonna let her do it anyways ;)
Also, a HUGE thing I almost completely forgot to mention is, we started breastfeeding! We went from exclusively pumping to exclusively breastfeeding (unless daddy or grandma is watching her, obv). You can read all about that here. It's something I never ever thought we would have, and I can tell it's affected the bond between us for the better.
Starting this week I am implementing a sleep schedule for her. Mainly a set bedtime routine, start bedtime, and wake time. She was kind of doing it on her own, I'm just adding structure to it for both our sakes. I think being in the NICU made her a schedule kind of girl- or maybe that's just her personality. Structure and consistency. She may look like her father but she is definitely my child.
She's started smiling for real the last month as well, which is just absolutely contagious. You can't not smile back at that adorable, toothless smile. The kind of smile that goes up to your eyes. She squeals and "talks" to the ceiling fan and to her ocean friends (her crib mobile). I seriously cannot wait until the day she starts giggling. She is such a beautiful girl inside and out, and I love getting to know her a little more everyday.