Hello! I'm so glad you're here.
My name is Alyssa. I am 30 years old and I live in Red Bluff, CA with my husband Theron, our daughter Eliana, and our son Warren (Due March 2020).
Writing has always been a passion of mine, and it's always been a way for me to process things and heal through them. I remember writing in diaries when I was young, the freeing feeling of just letting the words out.
Here you will find a little bit of everything, but mostly blog posts about motherhood. A little backstory of my journey to motherhood: We found it very hard to conceive and when we finally did, I had a chemical pregnancy. I quit my secure office job to pursue my not-so-secure wedding hair and makeup business. Then I found out I was pregnant, and I had a very hard pregnancy that resulted in premature rupture of membranes at 33 +3. I had my daughter at 34 weeks gestation. Then I suffered postpartum depression on top of an overly fussy newborn. I still struggle with PPD but it's getting better, and Eliana is getting less fussy everyday. We reached her first birthday and finally felt like we knew what we were doing and BAM. Pregnant with baby no. 2! So ready or not, here we go.
I believe in being honest and transparent. I believe that pretending everything is "okay" or perfect doesn't help anybody. I'm here to speak my truths, and allow other women to do the same.
I have always struggled with depression and anxiety, and now postpartum as well as prenatal depression. I talk openly about this in all of the blog posts I write. It took me a long time to feel comfortable expressing my truth like that, but the more I've done it, the more freeing it is. And it's amazing how many women have reached out and said that they have felt the same way.
Let's talk about mental illness. Let's start the discussion about how freaking hard and rewarding motherhood is. Let's support each other as women, mommas, girl bosses... because life is so much better when you can be yourself.
Be brave, mommas.